To You.

Long time din update my blog le... not i dun wan 2 update is because i dunno wat can i write, if i write something is cannot see by other people than in the end sure a lot of trouble but keep in heart really torture me... ahhhh somebody tell me wat can i do...
Already november le... a lot of things happen in my life... before tat i meet a girl... name Carol Chin.
At first we start comment each other on facebook. First sight to me is how can i say ah, display picture quite good(normal display pic lie 1). Seeing other pic of her and discover tat omg wtf.... but in the end i choose to chat with her coz i feel tat very comfortable when we chatting each other. We meet not more than 1 week and seeing each other not more than 10 times and suddenly we in-relationship le... To me i say 2 myself; haha finally i single le 3 years at last got gf can care me le...
Oh the worst nightmare is starting my life. Normally a new couple should be so sweet and romantic... but we like a flash like tat. too fast... very fast... how 2 explain ah, starting is go for pak tuo le, and hold hand hand le, and wat wat but not until on the bed la. i still remenber 1 night, tat time we already 1 week le(i think so), she suddenly say we break bah. My GOD wat is happening, dunno wat wrong, feel like sudden death 2 me. so the next day i was post tis kind of madness and crazy things in facebook and because of tis things we quarrel... funny tat after 1 day tat we quarrel suddenly say we 2gether again. To me i feel tat i was playing by tis gal. so, i tell myself, ok i give u last chance if still playing tis game i quit... ok... things nvm change, keep quarrel, keep breaking, keep forgive her. Finally at last we break. But still she dosent give up. OMG i hate tis part, i telling her a lot time we cant 2gether anymore coz we not suitable 2 each other. Y u still so stubborn! we IMPOSIBLE ok!
If u reading tis blog, ok i tell u 1 more things. I still loving my "target". I still love her so much, not the first love(carrie), u wont know who she is. She also dunno i love her. If u wan 2 know y i still love u can read previous blog la. I always write about her and until now she bf also i still love her. Sorry if i hurt but u make me no choice.
Ok stop saying her again. make me no mood. Rite now my life quite good also, back 2 my father there helping him. Single still freedom but sometimes feel lonely haha nth change.
To my target:
i still love u. still miss u. I really regret i din tell u early. Tat time i was so stupid, tat time got 2 person chasing u, and i thought i maybe will fall out coz tat 2 person is my best fren but i cant imagine tat they hurt u so bad. Before tat i drunk in maison de last time we went because i saw sad things, u keep holding him. After u come back from long trip, i was wiling 2 tell u wat i felt on u but it was too late coz u have new BF. For now, as long as he treat u good and happy, i wont do anything dun worry coz i dun wan u fall in unhappy stage again. Just to say I still love u so much and these words i think rite now is my last chance 2 tell u. Take care. Love u.