Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Feeling.....

today.... whold day din sleep....
tuesday, morning wake up in 11.00a.m. forcing to wake up coz my father want discuss about car instalment... my father just take 1 car from his fren and give me 2 drive... so discuss how much i need to pay every month la... so chit chat chit chat until 12.15p.m so go working loh....
tis the worst part... everyday morning work, eat, sleep; work, eat, sleep... so boring la.... boring life... so today business ok la.... still can remain la good only la... but tis month profit already drop until very terrible..... today also chat with "target" also.... same loh ask tis ask tat... say nth... dun know wan 2 say wat?..... bad isnt it... i always ask myself y already change a lot??? y my mind blank when i chat or talking with "target"? I know is impossible 2gether la coz i also know myself how la (those ppl who know me).. maybe when she see me, mind keep saying "tis fat guy go away la" (maybe).... 1 more things i also wan 2 know la actually.... fat guy always cannot have beautiful leng lui ma? y must like tat de ne? but sometimes i saw those fat guy also hanging with those leng lui de? maybe the guy rich? like tat tat is true, rich can kao leng lui like tat i prefer having a normal life....
y? coz i dislike keep disturb say tat buy tis 4 me la, buy tat 4 me la.... ( i HATE It)..... pray god dun give tis gf 2 me la....
so work until at nite la.... go yam cha with my best fren la..... haiz still de same loh.... boring hahahha.... but still my heart almost broken.... i saw things tat make hard 2 breath....really hard....i wan 2 speak out... but i cant... i dun wan lost my best fren and 4ever.... really headach.... haiz......

First Time At Blogger

Blogger.... At last got something to do... something i can write down to know about me...
sometimes i feel that i dun know so much... dun know myself wat should i do.... dun know how other feel about me....
Me born in very terrible family... like already been curse by god (my mom always say tat)....
how terrible?.... Normal family got 1 father, 1 mother and son or daugther...
Me ah.... 1 father.... 2 mother... 1 father(gf).... 2 sister (which is 2 different mother)...
and me(alone)....
Terrible right? tat's not the part.... include my big family also same la.... all also same as me la.... terrible terrible terrible....
ok i was young... forget 1 things... i left my mom when i was 41/2 years old la.... my grandmom grow me up... i love my grandmother so much.... when i was 6 years old... actually call start at 6 years old la... tat's is the terrible things and i suffer until when i was 17 years old... u all know wat i suffer... u all got watch those drama tat stepmother always very bad... punish those kids... punch or kick or etc..... i cant write anymore la....
u all almost know wat i suffer la tat time... tat's the idiot things and i never forget and forgive things in my life... never never....
ok la... 18 years old come out working la.... tat time already got gf la.... work work work... but no use.... u all wan 2 know y?....
the reason tat i say no use is working to survive or keeping money for future but tat time nope... i working is becoz i work 4 my gf la.... buy tat buy tis.... go there go here... watever la... but tat time is very happy coz i though got 1 gf can share my feeling with her.....
when i 19 years old, i find out tat no... my gf no really good actually..... my family already unhappy and start to complant... my fren all also unhappy.... the worst part is she outside got 1 guy who wat wat wat la.....
tat is "oh my god".... wat happen 2 me?..... wat should do? wat have i done? and i'm so angry....
so i decide to break up with her......
ok at start i though ok loh i will forget her slowly de coz she done a terrible wrong.....
so i chance my jobs to offer a high wages job..... until now i'm still working.. quite good....
but i realise 1 things.....
when now i'm almost 21 years old la.... i'm still cant forget her..... when i go where? having my meal or wat la.... still thinking of her.... y ah? i need to know y ah? y i still remenber her... i already got target but still.... haiz.....