23 December 2008 12.53a.m
At last i decide to resign from Ultimate Copier. Maybe Peter was right, if got plan go ahead. If say wan 2 skip those reason than need to stay until try the best until think tat still cannot than change. Peter, thanks for everything u teach tis few month. If u not so friendly maybe i cant learn a lot of things in Ultimate. Really thank u my friend. To all my friends from Ultimate Copier if u all reading this blog, i would like to say thank u to u all that teach me a lot of things and i really have a great day with u all. Sorry tat if i done something wrong make u all unhappy or misunderstanding. If i got time i will find u all and i will remember u all.
So, decide already. need to work until 31st December than 1st January i will work at Sg.Wang. At last i go back to my dream working place. Hopefully i can shout and say "I'm Back, Sg Wang!!!". hahaha feel like i'm idiot right? maybe.... but anyway thanks GOD that brings me back there to work. There's the place i so happy a lot. BBS... i wondering i din choose wrong decision. Pray tat everything will be OK.
Right now just think how is my "Prospect" right now? how are u? how is your life? Is tat i can help u ma? maybe u wont ask me that question because beside u got a lot of guy helping u. Hopefully happy everyday. Actually i got a lot a lot of things wan 2 tell u but seem that not dare to tell u. Sometimes i wondering did i need to tell you this kind of things. When i see you i hope can find a chance that tell you what i wan 2 tell u but sometimes cant find it. Worry when i speak it out, our relationship will end here or maybe wont so good from now. Remember i ask u the question when we having dinner at KLCC? Maybe u already give the answer but tat time i dunno wat u means but now i know, maybe to u will feel boring because u know me a lot. I dunno how 2 say, to me, i waiting so long just wan to tell u tat i fell in u. As long as u happy with ur status right now maybe i wont disturb u. The important is u happy.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
confussing
11/12/2008 Night
I already work at Ultimate Copier almost three month already...so fast three month already pass but i cant use to it. until now dun know wat i suppose to do. ask myself y my sales always between 1-2. Cant go to three or even ten machine. did i miss somethings? y other ppls can do until sales very good but not me? did i not good enough? did i say something wrong when i talking to customer? but when i go back do mobile phone part time last week in BB plaza, i feel i can find myself there. i know wat i suppose to say, wat to do, wat i must say or wat i not suppose to say. i thought when my sales in mobile market is good so i go anywhere also no need to worry but proven wrong... I'm now in trouble stage... cant cover my whole month outgoing expenses. ahhahhh very headache. Should resign rite now? or i should stay? i need money rite now but i dun wan waste my long time in counter. haiz.... i know tis world dun have such tis things de. i need to face the truth tat if i wan money i need to sacrifice my time but if i wan freedom i need to sacrifice my money. help somebody help me ah..... wat should i do? wat should i do next steps? wat can i do?
I already work at Ultimate Copier almost three month already...so fast three month already pass but i cant use to it. until now dun know wat i suppose to do. ask myself y my sales always between 1-2. Cant go to three or even ten machine. did i miss somethings? y other ppls can do until sales very good but not me? did i not good enough? did i say something wrong when i talking to customer? but when i go back do mobile phone part time last week in BB plaza, i feel i can find myself there. i know wat i suppose to say, wat to do, wat i must say or wat i not suppose to say. i thought when my sales in mobile market is good so i go anywhere also no need to worry but proven wrong... I'm now in trouble stage... cant cover my whole month outgoing expenses. ahhahhh very headache. Should resign rite now? or i should stay? i need money rite now but i dun wan waste my long time in counter. haiz.... i know tis world dun have such tis things de. i need to face the truth tat if i wan money i need to sacrifice my time but if i wan freedom i need to sacrifice my money. help somebody help me ah..... wat should i do? wat should i do next steps? wat can i do?
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
U Are The Most Idiot Man In The World ahhhahhhhhhh
Today is not really in good mood. I quarrel with my Bro. I'm not means to scold him on last night matter because last night i din find they all. Not because i always want to do this such a things. u thought i dun wan find u all ma, if i can i no need let this things happen lo. Every time i does this things u sure will say me a lot of things but did u think yourself is like pretending smart person and always say u right? U actually is a stubborn,selfish and idiot person. think yourself carefully la... if not also no need no friends at all la. OK fine is enough to say him.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Wat i wan in my life...
wat i wan in my life...
haha good question to me. not to other ppls la. this question make me so headache and almost got kill by this question. Wat i wan actually??? Money? Girl or wife? house maybe? to me i really dun know. Even though i get scold by my fren, advise from my fren mouth or other way to talk to me this question. My heart just dunno y can accept it. i also think back my past tat y i wan in my life.
So confusing. So painful. make me feel lost. trap in the puzzle. i wan to get out. i wan to know wat i wan. Can anybody help me? Can anybody lend his/her hand to me or tell me wat can i do for the rest of my life. i'm really lost... really really lost....
haha good question to me. not to other ppls la. this question make me so headache and almost got kill by this question. Wat i wan actually??? Money? Girl or wife? house maybe? to me i really dun know. Even though i get scold by my fren, advise from my fren mouth or other way to talk to me this question. My heart just dunno y can accept it. i also think back my past tat y i wan in my life.
So confusing. So painful. make me feel lost. trap in the puzzle. i wan to get out. i wan to know wat i wan. Can anybody help me? Can anybody lend his/her hand to me or tell me wat can i do for the rest of my life. i'm really lost... really really lost....
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Dun wan to put Title.
Feel unhappy tis week... feel like i'm have been kill by somebody...
stress is the main enemy to me... i hate it but i have to use to it... if not how to survive... this month, i means November. My big boss want me to hit 5 unit for this month sales... Oh my GOD... how to hit but lucky today can confirm 2 unit tat send for demo... probably high chance tat buy from me la coz once send for demo, mostly customer will buy 1... and than still have three to go. Pray tat this month hit target, if not i dun know how to survive and how face my big boss.
Still got 1 more month to go than is new year loh. 2009 loh. a new beginning year has come. Maybe i have to say to myself tat dun think otherelse too much. Need to concetrate on career. Maybe... hmm ^^
Those who seeing my blog rite now i wan to say something to u all. thanks you so much tat take ur most important time with me before tat and for those who seeing before my blog. dun put this kind of blog into ur heart. this is all my feeling only. nth else. just wan to shout out so tat i can sleep peacefully at nite. In the end i prefer tat all the things put into GOD hands and GOD decision. i dun wan tat is becoz of this blog so make u so unhappy and our friends relantionship far away. Take care and wish u all the best. ^^
stress is the main enemy to me... i hate it but i have to use to it... if not how to survive... this month, i means November. My big boss want me to hit 5 unit for this month sales... Oh my GOD... how to hit but lucky today can confirm 2 unit tat send for demo... probably high chance tat buy from me la coz once send for demo, mostly customer will buy 1... and than still have three to go. Pray tat this month hit target, if not i dun know how to survive and how face my big boss.
Still got 1 more month to go than is new year loh. 2009 loh. a new beginning year has come. Maybe i have to say to myself tat dun think otherelse too much. Need to concetrate on career. Maybe... hmm ^^
Those who seeing my blog rite now i wan to say something to u all. thanks you so much tat take ur most important time with me before tat and for those who seeing before my blog. dun put this kind of blog into ur heart. this is all my feeling only. nth else. just wan to shout out so tat i can sleep peacefully at nite. In the end i prefer tat all the things put into GOD hands and GOD decision. i dun wan tat is becoz of this blog so make u so unhappy and our friends relantionship far away. Take care and wish u all the best. ^^
Friday, September 19, 2008
I Do Tis For My Girl!
Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.
• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you're around your friends.
• be the one to take her hand, don't make her reach for you
• be the one to call her, don't make her always call you
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she's important.
• let her take all the photos she wants of you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.
• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you're around your friends.
• be the one to take her hand, don't make her reach for you
• be the one to call her, don't make her always call you
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she's important.
• let her take all the photos she wants of you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Wish me have a great time la
15/09/2008 05.57p.m rain...
start from now maybe use dairy format to write blog.....
today i mad with 2 person.... 2 person also i love the most... 1 is my dad and 1 is my mum....
tis two persons y cant they always listen want i trying to tell them... i just need they opinion and their ear to hear wat i wan to say.... just simply... y cant they do tat.....once i start wan to say something and the 1st things they do is just scold... scold .... scold..... make my head so headach.... so pain..... somemore later date with my 'target'.... worry giving her the worst experince when we 1st time date....
so worry later will wat happen.... maybe taken her to pavilion TGI friday having dinner.... hope and pray tat the situation will be good and we enjoy it.... but the things i hope the most is tat she can happy and having a great time tonight.... if can i hope can give her a wonderful and happy day all the time.... wat i'm saying haha.... hope u all pray to me tat tonite have a great time ba hehe^^
start from now maybe use dairy format to write blog.....
today i mad with 2 person.... 2 person also i love the most... 1 is my dad and 1 is my mum....
tis two persons y cant they always listen want i trying to tell them... i just need they opinion and their ear to hear wat i wan to say.... just simply... y cant they do tat.....once i start wan to say something and the 1st things they do is just scold... scold .... scold..... make my head so headach.... so pain..... somemore later date with my 'target'.... worry giving her the worst experince when we 1st time date....
so worry later will wat happen.... maybe taken her to pavilion TGI friday having dinner.... hope and pray tat the situation will be good and we enjoy it.... but the things i hope the most is tat she can happy and having a great time tonight.... if can i hope can give her a wonderful and happy day all the time.... wat i'm saying haha.... hope u all pray to me tat tonite have a great time ba hehe^^
Friday, September 12, 2008
My Inside World.....
sometimes stare in tis blank post dun know wat i want to write but when in mind a lot of things i wan to say out.....
when driving, my mind just go round and round and round tat thinking how to make money..... sometimes money can stand a lot of things or can buy ppl "true colour".... i means those ppl wearing mask do ppl 1 when they talk about money.... ok ok example when din talk about money, they will always say hey bro bla bla..... bro 4ever ah.... but when u need help tat time u will see those wearing mask or they could say "bro" will run away from u....
HAhahaha so "true colour" of them...... dun know wat can i say....
back to my situation..... i was hoping to see her again but i cant coz when i make appointment with her, she buz in last minute..... i'm not angry... seriously i'm not.... if she have seeing tis blogspot i just need to say dun feel so sorry... is ok... nevermine...
i'm not the person wont understand tat wat is important..... just have to say i need to wait and try my best do it again loh.... i know i'm not quite special or maybe i'm not handsome enough.... but 1 things u also tell me be4 tat i must trust myself and i wont fall out so quickly... i will do my all best to stand beside u, take good care of u and when u in need i will the 1st person to be ur side immediately..... but i know i dunno how to say in front of u.... just hoping when u tis blog and know wat i feel.... hopefully u understand not becoz i'm just saying only... just i'm scare when i say tis things to u and u will run away from me.... hope u understand tat... if somebody see tis blog, pls if u angry with me or wat go ahead i wont blame u... i know wat i wan and wat i need... not becoz i need to sacrife my whole life to u even my future but i will say 1 things tat u are my bro 4ever.... if u see wat i write rite now and feel so angry ok i will walk away......
when driving, my mind just go round and round and round tat thinking how to make money..... sometimes money can stand a lot of things or can buy ppl "true colour".... i means those ppl wearing mask do ppl 1 when they talk about money.... ok ok example when din talk about money, they will always say hey bro bla bla..... bro 4ever ah.... but when u need help tat time u will see those wearing mask or they could say "bro" will run away from u....
HAhahaha so "true colour" of them...... dun know wat can i say....
back to my situation..... i was hoping to see her again but i cant coz when i make appointment with her, she buz in last minute..... i'm not angry... seriously i'm not.... if she have seeing tis blogspot i just need to say dun feel so sorry... is ok... nevermine...
i'm not the person wont understand tat wat is important..... just have to say i need to wait and try my best do it again loh.... i know i'm not quite special or maybe i'm not handsome enough.... but 1 things u also tell me be4 tat i must trust myself and i wont fall out so quickly... i will do my all best to stand beside u, take good care of u and when u in need i will the 1st person to be ur side immediately..... but i know i dunno how to say in front of u.... just hoping when u tis blog and know wat i feel.... hopefully u understand not becoz i'm just saying only... just i'm scare when i say tis things to u and u will run away from me.... hope u understand tat... if somebody see tis blog, pls if u angry with me or wat go ahead i wont blame u... i know wat i wan and wat i need... not becoz i need to sacrife my whole life to u even my future but i will say 1 things tat u are my bro 4ever.... if u see wat i write rite now and feel so angry ok i will walk away......
Sunday, September 7, 2008
祝福"她".
今天很开心.我可以看到她了.很久没看到她也很期待可以很快看到她.我第一次很大胆的写出来说我很想看她,想念她.我不希望她能看到这一个blog....只希望她能开开心心的过日子和忘记掉那些伤心的事.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
"Move As Far As I Could, Leave As Far As I Could!!!!"
Actually hoping tat can write in Chinese de but seem like i already dunno how to write liao hahaha.
Just starter a new job and quite good... at least got EPF, Socso and income tax loh... somemore all is follow labour law... got annual leave everything la... tat the job i dream always de.... rite now i quite happy oh coz i already quit the handphone industri... but now also got do part time job la selling handphone to those regular customer...
but 1 things very headache for now is facing the frens problem.... feel like my frens and bro are using me becoz i have transport... and rite now i facing financial problem coz cant roll those money to my supplier... and now the time to call upon them to return my money back seem tat like just my parent or olders say tat money go out easily but return back is difficult.... cant even 1 friend or bor return me any money.... make me think tat y i last time so stupid.... y i must help friends when they in trouble but in the end when i were in trouble they run away or give those nonsense reason.... y? y? y? somemore i done anything also think they felling 1st but did they? i stupid until my love also given to those who call us "bro 4ever".... now i also scold and laugh myself.... " Liam Yap Tzu Wern, y u so stupid??? y u done tis things and your friends din done or help u at all!!!!"
Planning to move.... move as far as i could.... need to leave.... leave as far as i could... i have to... dun blame me or put wrong things in me coz u all dun ever have the right to do tat... NO NO NO.....
but 1 things very headache for now is facing the frens problem.... feel like my frens and bro are using me becoz i have transport... and rite now i facing financial problem coz cant roll those money to my supplier... and now the time to call upon them to return my money back seem tat like just my parent or olders say tat money go out easily but return back is difficult.... cant even 1 friend or bor return me any money.... make me think tat y i last time so stupid.... y i must help friends when they in trouble but in the end when i were in trouble they run away or give those nonsense reason.... y? y? y? somemore i done anything also think they felling 1st but did they? i stupid until my love also given to those who call us "bro 4ever".... now i also scold and laugh myself.... " Liam Yap Tzu Wern, y u so stupid??? y u done tis things and your friends din done or help u at all!!!!"
Planning to move.... move as far as i could.... need to leave.... leave as far as i could... i have to... dun blame me or put wrong things in me coz u all dun ever have the right to do tat... NO NO NO.....
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Somebody Guide Me Plsssss........
ahrrrrr.... lost job already.... at last i can say at last i lost job already....
somebody ask me wat is ur plan? wat are u doing next? tis kind of question before tat i already ask myself wat should i do next....
ok now i stop in front of t-junction, tat means i have 2 ways now.....
1, i go back help my father run tat car rental buisness.... oh tat road i already walk it twice... and still when i work with my father.. we both will quarrel everytime... but tat buisness is very good.... can earn a lot tat's means in future i can see this road with brightness.... but 1st if i walk tis road i need to "sabar" patient tis horrible father... but if can i choose tis road when i old enough and mature enough.....
2, work with monster.... "Raymond".... the big boss of my old company... my mobile comunication... woo tat guy when i saw him 1st time he really can kill me immediatly... if work with him, i need work at spetrum, ampang... tat place almost like ghost town... no ppl walk there.... but when got customer wan to buy then will get a lot of profit... my fren lun is telling me join with him work at new counter tat replace VS Com counter.... but under 1 boss call "ah wan".... but old boss, bro is work same place but different counter and some more work next to it.... tis the things i hard to choose and headach....
y always need to choose tis kind of things leh? some more my bro stephen until now still thinking me and my fren betray him.... is tat i need to choose the broken way so tat i can survive tis place just same as i choose to leave my "target" to other ppl so i live in suffer life so tat i can see her everytime? but now i see her suffering and now i'm thinking tat is it the way i choose is wrong? if tat time i choose not to leave her maybe she now very happy? maybe i can give her happiness and not sadness... maybe i guess but already gone tis things and i dun wan think about it anymore but still.....
haiz.... always keep coming keep coming.... make me force to face this things.... and hopefully tat somebody can guide me and if can give me answer so i can face it easily.... hopefully....
somebody ask me wat is ur plan? wat are u doing next? tis kind of question before tat i already ask myself wat should i do next....
ok now i stop in front of t-junction, tat means i have 2 ways now.....
1, i go back help my father run tat car rental buisness.... oh tat road i already walk it twice... and still when i work with my father.. we both will quarrel everytime... but tat buisness is very good.... can earn a lot tat's means in future i can see this road with brightness.... but 1st if i walk tis road i need to "sabar" patient tis horrible father... but if can i choose tis road when i old enough and mature enough.....
2, work with monster.... "Raymond".... the big boss of my old company... my mobile comunication... woo tat guy when i saw him 1st time he really can kill me immediatly... if work with him, i need work at spetrum, ampang... tat place almost like ghost town... no ppl walk there.... but when got customer wan to buy then will get a lot of profit... my fren lun is telling me join with him work at new counter tat replace VS Com counter.... but under 1 boss call "ah wan".... but old boss, bro is work same place but different counter and some more work next to it.... tis the things i hard to choose and headach....
y always need to choose tis kind of things leh? some more my bro stephen until now still thinking me and my fren betray him.... is tat i need to choose the broken way so tat i can survive tis place just same as i choose to leave my "target" to other ppl so i live in suffer life so tat i can see her everytime? but now i see her suffering and now i'm thinking tat is it the way i choose is wrong? if tat time i choose not to leave her maybe she now very happy? maybe i can give her happiness and not sadness... maybe i guess but already gone tis things and i dun wan think about it anymore but still.....
haiz.... always keep coming keep coming.... make me force to face this things.... and hopefully tat somebody can guide me and if can give me answer so i can face it easily.... hopefully....
Sunday, July 6, 2008
BETRAY!!!!!!
ok at last reach july... also at last i nearlly put down my heart breaking things.... almost forgot the things already..... y always keep trouble to me.... i lost a job again....
haiz.... dun know y, already 3 years i working outside always keep changing jobs.... and 1 jobs not more then 1 years..... example last time i work at Samsung FMG... tat time really really happy but work about nine month i lost tat job coz i done wrong things... and now... i feburary go in tat new company and work no more then half year tat stupid tesco say tat need to take back 12 counter and now make me lost job.... and tis matter i not very hurt, the hurt part is my boss suddenly say me and my fren Lun betray him!!!!!!
oh my GOD!!!! wat happen??? i done so long ppl and i swear i din ever ever done tis things in my life!!!! and somemore my boss is my bro, how could i betray him??? y he suddenly say so??? i know he was hit until very hurt coz lost 1 important counter, can i say 1 and only counter but no need until think tat we betray him... so sad... really always keep coming those hate, sad things to me!!! did i really do anything wrong??? y i need to suffer tis things?
Also need to thank tis things happen coz suddenly i can guess or nearlly know wat person thinking and next move is it... dun know suddenly my mind play a lot of things example a fren doin tis matter and i know he next move should do tis matter.....
Back to my boss part... start on 28 june he keep asking and saying those things tat make us like betray him like he ask din i accompany outside ppl doin those dirty things to him or he always keep thinking tat we do those dirty things to him.... tat time really really sad... sad.... y my bro think i'm tat kind of person... y!!!! My target already gone, My job already lost and now My Bro din trusted ME!!!!! Y suddenly all kind of things!!!!! y!!!!! who can tell me y!!!!!!
haiz.... dun know y, already 3 years i working outside always keep changing jobs.... and 1 jobs not more then 1 years..... example last time i work at Samsung FMG... tat time really really happy but work about nine month i lost tat job coz i done wrong things... and now... i feburary go in tat new company and work no more then half year tat stupid tesco say tat need to take back 12 counter and now make me lost job.... and tis matter i not very hurt, the hurt part is my boss suddenly say me and my fren Lun betray him!!!!!!
oh my GOD!!!! wat happen??? i done so long ppl and i swear i din ever ever done tis things in my life!!!! and somemore my boss is my bro, how could i betray him??? y he suddenly say so??? i know he was hit until very hurt coz lost 1 important counter, can i say 1 and only counter but no need until think tat we betray him... so sad... really always keep coming those hate, sad things to me!!! did i really do anything wrong??? y i need to suffer tis things?
Also need to thank tis things happen coz suddenly i can guess or nearlly know wat person thinking and next move is it... dun know suddenly my mind play a lot of things example a fren doin tis matter and i know he next move should do tis matter.....
Back to my boss part... start on 28 june he keep asking and saying those things tat make us like betray him like he ask din i accompany outside ppl doin those dirty things to him or he always keep thinking tat we do those dirty things to him.... tat time really really sad... sad.... y my bro think i'm tat kind of person... y!!!! My target already gone, My job already lost and now My Bro din trusted ME!!!!! Y suddenly all kind of things!!!!! y!!!!! who can tell me y!!!!!!
Monday, May 26, 2008
Heart Hurt So Deep
Very pain.... really so hurt my heart.... i cant say anythings..... i saw something really really painful.... sometimes if can i dun wan saw this situation but y GOD let me saw tis things.... y? Y?...... i really hate tat... i know i lost a important things in my life.... something tat really important things... i hate myself not becoz of wat... i hate myself y i must be so stupid to let chance go away.... y??? sometimes think tat maybe she not the one.... keep thinking ok maybe wait for dun know when until i can meet my important.... keep telling myself dun think too much.... the true and things already happen... i should accept it.... but my heart.... REALLY PAIN... really pain... i pain last 2 years and now i force to meet tis pain again.... y i wan to suffer tis..... did i do wrong in the past 2 years? so i need to suffer tis pain rite now? i already tired working working..... FOR WHAT!!!! i just wan a person be with me and walk with me in future... is so difficult ma? like tat also call Hard than i should leave tis place.... maybe other place will suitable to me.... i dun know but if still like tat..... if i need to suffer tis pain again and again i should leave.... i hate like tat.... y i must pretent so kind.... y? y i always need to wear those stupid face to face they all for wat??? y i cant be myself??? y i must think others ppl 1st than later think myself?? in the end i get wat... NOTHING!!!!! nothing i get.... all i get is others ppl happy but me..... myself.... lonely... sad.... unsatify.... boring... somemore.... i already fed up... is enough.... good guy are cant leave in tis world... only bad guys will leave in tis world... actually i need to be bad guys in 1st not good guys.... i already live in outside world already 4 years and stupid until now i understand those ppl are using me....!!!! Use me to do tis!!!! use me to tat!!! use me to do wat they all need to success they goal.. I dun care u wan to do to me.... i wont be good guys anymore.... I pray GOD tat pls let me be bad guy from now onward.... AMEN!!!!!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
At Last I give up......
At last..... i give up.... i think i not suitable 2 her gua.... i think my lifestyle not really suitable 4 her gua..... i better wake up from tis dream coz i think is enough la... always dreaming tat can with her 2gether.... ahhh.... wake up loh liam.... is enough.... u not the right person to give her everythings tat wat she need ok.....
today.... still de same working whole day long.... today i know 1 things in tis world.... sumthing tat i need to change 2 survive in tis world is to be BAD GUYS..... not good guy... is become bad.... bad guys can make ppl scare... bad guys can make ppl feel tat u are strong... bad guys can make ppl tat u not easy to bully.... i need 2 be bad guys... i dun wan let ppl feel tat i easy to bully or wat....
tis feeling i had enough!!!!! IS ENOUGH!!!!!!
i already fed up everythings..... even though my fren or wat.... is enough..... already overlimit...
Today also 1 things make me confuss.... my fren suddenly ask me wan 2 join venture with him or not.... but now i oledi settle my new job.... i already headach... dun know wat should i do.... dun know i should join or not? should i give up? now i'm standing in T-Junction... where should i go? will i regret if i choose any of them? Pray GOD tat can give guide tat show me the road tat which road i ned to walk or maybe fren who read tis blog pls some comment.... i really ned some advice so tat i can walk next step....
today.... still de same working whole day long.... today i know 1 things in tis world.... sumthing tat i need to change 2 survive in tis world is to be BAD GUYS..... not good guy... is become bad.... bad guys can make ppl scare... bad guys can make ppl feel tat u are strong... bad guys can make ppl tat u not easy to bully.... i need 2 be bad guys... i dun wan let ppl feel tat i easy to bully or wat....
tis feeling i had enough!!!!! IS ENOUGH!!!!!!
i already fed up everythings..... even though my fren or wat.... is enough..... already overlimit...
Today also 1 things make me confuss.... my fren suddenly ask me wan 2 join venture with him or not.... but now i oledi settle my new job.... i already headach... dun know wat should i do.... dun know i should join or not? should i give up? now i'm standing in T-Junction... where should i go? will i regret if i choose any of them? Pray GOD tat can give guide tat show me the road tat which road i ned to walk or maybe fren who read tis blog pls some comment.... i really ned some advice so tat i can walk next step....
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Feeling.....
today.... whold day din sleep....
tuesday, morning wake up in 11.00a.m. forcing to wake up coz my father want discuss about car instalment... my father just take 1 car from his fren and give me 2 drive... so discuss how much i need to pay every month la... so chit chat chit chat until 12.15p.m so go working loh....
tis the worst part... everyday morning work, eat, sleep; work, eat, sleep... so boring la.... boring life... so today business ok la.... still can remain la good only la... but tis month profit already drop until very terrible..... today also chat with "target" also.... same loh ask tis ask tat... say nth... dun know wan 2 say wat?..... bad isnt it... i always ask myself y already change a lot??? y my mind blank when i chat or talking with "target"? I know is impossible 2gether la coz i also know myself how la (those ppl who know me).. maybe when she see me, mind keep saying "tis fat guy go away la" (maybe).... 1 more things i also wan 2 know la actually.... fat guy always cannot have beautiful leng lui ma? y must like tat de ne? but sometimes i saw those fat guy also hanging with those leng lui de? maybe the guy rich? like tat tat is true, rich can kao leng lui like tat i prefer having a normal life....
y? coz i dislike keep disturb say tat buy tis 4 me la, buy tat 4 me la.... ( i HATE It)..... pray god dun give tis gf 2 me la....
so work until at nite la.... go yam cha with my best fren la..... haiz still de same loh.... boring hahahha.... but still my heart almost broken.... i saw things tat make hard 2 breath....really hard....i wan 2 speak out... but i cant... i dun wan lost my best fren and 4ever.... really headach.... haiz......
tuesday, morning wake up in 11.00a.m. forcing to wake up coz my father want discuss about car instalment... my father just take 1 car from his fren and give me 2 drive... so discuss how much i need to pay every month la... so chit chat chit chat until 12.15p.m so go working loh....
tis the worst part... everyday morning work, eat, sleep; work, eat, sleep... so boring la.... boring life... so today business ok la.... still can remain la good only la... but tis month profit already drop until very terrible..... today also chat with "target" also.... same loh ask tis ask tat... say nth... dun know wan 2 say wat?..... bad isnt it... i always ask myself y already change a lot??? y my mind blank when i chat or talking with "target"? I know is impossible 2gether la coz i also know myself how la (those ppl who know me).. maybe when she see me, mind keep saying "tis fat guy go away la" (maybe).... 1 more things i also wan 2 know la actually.... fat guy always cannot have beautiful leng lui ma? y must like tat de ne? but sometimes i saw those fat guy also hanging with those leng lui de? maybe the guy rich? like tat tat is true, rich can kao leng lui like tat i prefer having a normal life....
y? coz i dislike keep disturb say tat buy tis 4 me la, buy tat 4 me la.... ( i HATE It)..... pray god dun give tis gf 2 me la....
so work until at nite la.... go yam cha with my best fren la..... haiz still de same loh.... boring hahahha.... but still my heart almost broken.... i saw things tat make hard 2 breath....really hard....i wan 2 speak out... but i cant... i dun wan lost my best fren and 4ever.... really headach.... haiz......
First Time At Blogger
Blogger.... At last got something to do... something i can write down to know about me...
sometimes i feel that i dun know so much... dun know myself wat should i do.... dun know how other feel about me....
Me born in very terrible family... like already been curse by god (my mom always say tat)....
how terrible?.... Normal family got 1 father, 1 mother and son or daugther...
Me ah.... 1 father.... 2 mother... 1 father(gf).... 2 sister (which is 2 different mother)...
and me(alone)....
Terrible right? tat's not the part.... include my big family also same la.... all also same as me la.... terrible terrible terrible....
ok i was young... forget 1 things... i left my mom when i was 41/2 years old la.... my grandmom grow me up... i love my grandmother so much.... when i was 6 years old... actually call start at 6 years old la... tat's is the terrible things and i suffer until when i was 17 years old... u all know wat i suffer... u all got watch those drama tat stepmother always very bad... punish those kids... punch or kick or etc..... i cant write anymore la....
u all almost know wat i suffer la tat time... tat's the idiot things and i never forget and forgive things in my life... never never....
ok la... 18 years old come out working la.... tat time already got gf la.... work work work... but no use.... u all wan 2 know y?....
the reason tat i say no use is working to survive or keeping money for future but tat time nope... i working is becoz i work 4 my gf la.... buy tat buy tis.... go there go here... watever la... but tat time is very happy coz i though got 1 gf can share my feeling with her.....
when i 19 years old, i find out tat no... my gf no really good actually..... my family already unhappy and start to complant... my fren all also unhappy.... the worst part is she outside got 1 guy who wat wat wat la.....
tat is "oh my god".... wat happen 2 me?..... wat should do? wat have i done? and i'm so angry....
so i decide to break up with her......
ok at start i though ok loh i will forget her slowly de coz she done a terrible wrong.....
so i chance my jobs to offer a high wages job..... until now i'm still working.. quite good....
but i realise 1 things.....
when now i'm almost 21 years old la.... i'm still cant forget her..... when i go where? having my meal or wat la.... still thinking of her.... y ah? i need to know y ah? y i still remenber her... i already got target but still.... haiz.....
sometimes i feel that i dun know so much... dun know myself wat should i do.... dun know how other feel about me....
Me born in very terrible family... like already been curse by god (my mom always say tat)....
how terrible?.... Normal family got 1 father, 1 mother and son or daugther...
Me ah.... 1 father.... 2 mother... 1 father(gf).... 2 sister (which is 2 different mother)...
and me(alone)....
Terrible right? tat's not the part.... include my big family also same la.... all also same as me la.... terrible terrible terrible....
ok i was young... forget 1 things... i left my mom when i was 41/2 years old la.... my grandmom grow me up... i love my grandmother so much.... when i was 6 years old... actually call start at 6 years old la... tat's is the terrible things and i suffer until when i was 17 years old... u all know wat i suffer... u all got watch those drama tat stepmother always very bad... punish those kids... punch or kick or etc..... i cant write anymore la....
u all almost know wat i suffer la tat time... tat's the idiot things and i never forget and forgive things in my life... never never....
ok la... 18 years old come out working la.... tat time already got gf la.... work work work... but no use.... u all wan 2 know y?....
the reason tat i say no use is working to survive or keeping money for future but tat time nope... i working is becoz i work 4 my gf la.... buy tat buy tis.... go there go here... watever la... but tat time is very happy coz i though got 1 gf can share my feeling with her.....
when i 19 years old, i find out tat no... my gf no really good actually..... my family already unhappy and start to complant... my fren all also unhappy.... the worst part is she outside got 1 guy who wat wat wat la.....
tat is "oh my god".... wat happen 2 me?..... wat should do? wat have i done? and i'm so angry....
so i decide to break up with her......
ok at start i though ok loh i will forget her slowly de coz she done a terrible wrong.....
so i chance my jobs to offer a high wages job..... until now i'm still working.. quite good....
but i realise 1 things.....
when now i'm almost 21 years old la.... i'm still cant forget her..... when i go where? having my meal or wat la.... still thinking of her.... y ah? i need to know y ah? y i still remenber her... i already got target but still.... haiz.....
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